A Little Bit About Me
I am deeply religious and I am always aware of Allah watching me. I make mistakes, but I immediately feel evil and try to rectify things. My threshold for feeling evil is very low, but then again, if several people look at the same evil deed, they will judge it differently. To some, it might not seem too serious, while to others, it might be something they carry with them for the rest of their lives because it hurt them so much. All we can control are our intentions and the will to make things right.
I have always been hardworking, yet, I have only recently been able to define my career path. I studied biology, but I never had passion for it. Now I am establishing myself in biological data analysis and biostatistics, after having acquired a master’s degree in Bioinformatics. I have been providing biostatistical analysis services for researchers in Jordan since around July of last year, and I am in the process of registering my services as a business.
I was the second child after my super genius older brother, so I think I have this drive for achievement because I had to compete with him.
Socially, I am generally awkward and shy, but I don’t let that stop me from doing whatever I set my mind on. This aspect of my character is something I need to work on, but I have noticed that I get better when I have more social interactions, naturally. My default situation is staying home, but I also love going out, and I love chatting and being with friends.
If you ask me to describe my most prominent trait from my own perspective, then I would answer with: I have a growth mentality. I am always trying to get better at everything. I am happiest when I find something or some way that would make my life easier, or better, or the life of others around me. Of course, marriage can be the best place for growth, if one is blessed by Allah with the right husband. A perfect marriage for me would be one where I push my husband to be the "best version of himself - to use a cliché", and he would do the same for me.
I love outdoor activities such as camping, hiking, bushcraft, and I watch videos on this stuff all the time. I hope that I could do these things in the future with an outdoorsy husband. I also love outdoor sports such as tennis (I used to play sometimes, but I am not good), running (maybe we could run a marathon together one day), cycling (I learned to ride a bike a couple of years ago I think at 41, and I had an accident and scraped my elbows), indoor climbing (but I am not sure about rock or mountain climbing)….
I have only visited Barcelona and Istanbul, but I would like to make travel a regular, yearly event in my life. I would like to visit places where Islam has spread, but also anywhere and everywhere really. I would like to visit Ethiopia, Zanzibar, Egypt, Senegal, Morocco, Tunisia...I want to stay in a new place long enough (no less than two weeks) to really experience life there and not just do the touristy things. I enjoy the travel experience in its entirety from being at the airport, on the plane, to exploring the streets and landmarks of the new city. I would love to talk to people and ask them about their lives, troubles, and faith, but sometimes I find it hard to have more than small talk with strangers.
What I Am Looking For
When I think of a husband, I often think of the Ayah in the Qura'n:
"One of the women said, "O my father, hire him. Indeed, the best one you can hire is the strong and the trustworthy." A strong and trustworthy husband to look up to, to lean on in the hard times, and with whom I can feel safe.
You don't have to be perfect. We will be a team supporting each other.
I don't care much about material status or level of education, or type of job you do as long as you enjoy what you do and it has meaning for you and people around you.
I want someone who is mature enough to know that he is flawed and that I am flawed. I don't want someone to idolize me, rather, I need someone who would lovingly help me overcome my flaws and encourage me to do the same with him.
I would know if we are right for each other if we could have long conversations about anything and everything. And if I could tell you anything without fear of judgment or ridicule. I would feel safe and appreciated.